Actually, I don't like so much to live in Beijing, because it's sometimes too stressful. There are just too many people and too many noises here.

Everybody looks so busy. And so do I. We have no time to care about others and we have no time to really enjoy our life.

The air is not clean enough, nor is the water. We are not sure about the quality of the things we eat. 

I would really like to live in a smaller city like Lijiang in Yunnan if I could choose. But I can't until I get retired. At least it seems so to me at the moment. And that's the problem. 

And it's so difficult to make friends here as a Chinese. I say so because it will be much easier for a foreigner for people here are kinder to a foreigner, especially to a white person. Maybe that's just my feeling though.

Anyway I wish I could enjoy more. I am just so tired.